Seriously, I am a ball full of hate right now.
I have missed 4 Fridays in a row, last wnesday and Thursday were half days, which means half my money for those two days is gone. I make $9 a hour, I work about 9 hours a day, that means I lost $81 a day, $405 in this last month before taxes. Normally, on a 88 hour paycheck, after paying taxes, rent, utilities, setting aside $60 for two weeks gas in car, $150 for 2 weeks food etc, I have $20 extra to my name.
Now add in that taking a day off is boring as all hell. The last two days this has been my days off.
Friday, Woke at 6am ( normal wake time is 3-6am ) and sat here on the computer until 5pm with NOTHING to do.
Saturday, woke at 7am because I was feeling lazy, been sitting here for what seems like about 12 hours but its really been only 4 1/2 hours.
Internet porn has lost its charm, everyone I know is at work or wont come out of their coffins until 5pm or so or out of town having fun that I cant have because I have no extra money.
I, at one point was seriously tempted to start selling drugs to supliment my income but then I relized you NEED money to MAKE money, so that blew that idea out the window. My only other option to make a bit of cash is to donate plasma but then I will get sick which means I would miss work and in turn screw myself in my arse.
God, this job is so frustrating. I go to sleep as my friends get off work so I can barely hang with them, I have no money to do anything when I can stay up late to do stuff and I spend most my waking time working and nothing else to show for it. I still cant afford my new amp or to go out and play paintball.
I am pondering quitting my job but I doubt with this job market I would find anything near $9 a hour at 9 hours a day or more because thats what I need to survive. cruel world, why do you torment me so.